another side of me

Saturday, February 25, 2006

tired.
woke up real early this morning. got a message from a special someone sent last night.
went to meet the tpiranhas babies at school. all set for fun at prison touch.
it was no where near safra. but in bedok reformative training centre. got there early. so was stranded outside for quite sometime until somebody came and opened the gate for us. so we sat by the road and did some crazy stuff. like starting a fire. and pretending like prisoners squatting by the road with hands over our heads. so crap. haha.
aisyah came in a bike. so cool. made me wanna drive a bike again. so i guess im gonna take both a car and a bike license. made a deal with steph to learn and get bike license together. but she didnt find out when i would turn eighteen before making the deal. haha. so when she found out...haha.

had fun today. played with other teams. no teams consisted of all girls. it was either an all-guys team or a mixed team. but we made it to the bowl semi finals. got nothing in the end cos there was only first second and third prizes to be given out.
went home with nothing.
there was this team-sunshine team. our first game was with them. totally ruined our momentum cos the ref had to stop and explain to them rule1. shortly after came rule2 and 3 and....couldnt play a proper game. and they kept on laughing. alil frustrating.
so i got a chance to score a try but i scored it on the wrong line. boo hoo. and then we played against the seniors in our last game. old farts versus tpiranhas babies. score 1-0. cause after the siren went i broke through and passed a chuck ball to azlina-my winger. so there was no draw and no sudden death for us. it was the most relaxed game ever. felt as if we were having training.

got some tanning done too. but now i've got tshirt tan!! gosh...im red.

had a talk with shan yesterday. whatever she said wasnt what i wanted to hear at all.
its set in my heart.
sleep. so i dont hafta think about it.

i dont feel like doing anything now. so dead tired. or probably just the mind. tired mentally. leading to the physical state.
my eyes just just give me away.
gonna sleep early.
tomorrow's gonna be a long day.

monday is gonna be fun too.
i will plan.

i really dont want you to give up. but its not a matter of want or not. but if there comes a day where it has to happen. then theres nothing much we can do about it.
just want you to know that i enjoy every moment with you.

teary blood shot eyes.
the result of spending a day in the sun.

Friday, February 24, 2006

exams are over!!
but dont feel happy or anything. like no different from school days.
but definitely no more studying for sometime. maybe the next time is for supps. haha.
no more hpi
no more cell b
no more b mic
no more maths stats
for now.
haha.
i wonder how many supps i'll get. the most im expecting is two.
but im hoping..and hoping real hard that its just one. one is enough.

was tired after paper today. strange. totally not high with holiday mood.
but went for a movie- final destination three. grusome. makes me think that i can die anytime.
kept on yawning.
got back my fashion project but no grades given. unlike the other class.

went out for dinner and visited sher at coffee bean. she so cute.
hung out at the beach. just love being by the beach. so relaxed and away from all the hustle and bustle. good for heart to heart talks too.
i enjoyed myself.

more fun coming up for me during the holidays!
im gonna have fun!
and prison touch on saturday! yeah. gonna get some tanning done. and finally get to sweat it all out after sucha long time.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

hpi was CRAP.
if i pass. that would be a miracle.
section b was a killer. 40marks. i didnt know any question.
crapping my way through.
mcq was no better.
gosh.
pls grant me a miracle god.

so two down.
and two more to go.
but not necessarily if i hafta take supp for hpi.
but im not worrying.

Monday, February 20, 2006

bmic DOWN.
three more to go.
yeah.
it was alright. passable. hee.
i finished like real early but kept finding stuff to do. flipping pages front and back to kill time. and also so that the teacher wont wonder what im doing sitting there doing nothing.
didnt know why i dont wanna leave yet. but in the end still left early.
i dont know how to do b2. left it blank. seven marks. gosh.

got messages from haha and peng this morning. feel so loved. miss peng like crazy. cant wait to meet up with her!
azhar just messaged me too. haha. so nice.

chatted on msn for awhile. or so i think its just gonna be for awhile.
luu still sick. get well soon!
nash is funny.

ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
i just read the book memoirs of a geisha
ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
ur features look like japanese girl too me...
holiday prepared says:
hahahah
holiday prepared says:
okay...
ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
even made me tot u mite look like one
ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
its more of a compliment
ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
geisha beauty
ordinary life is pretty complex stuff wad more now tat i have chosen to lead my life differently.. says:
is one of its kind

alright. study. i feel so motivated to study all of a sudden. this is cool. haha.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

woke up real early today.
dont know for what. but maybe becos i slept early last night. but sufficient sleep didnt stop me from lazing on bed for a longer time.

had nothing much happening today. most of my day is spent studying. i have a good feeling about exams this time. something tells me no supps for me. so im really really looking forward to the after exams days. cos i can have so much fun and hang out with the people i love. esp those i miss lots.
advance booking please. haha.
just four papers. alright. four days. and year one of poly life is over for me. that i dont want. feel so old. gosh. i dont wanna grow up. i wanna stay seventeen. being year two just sounds wrong. being eighteen sounds worse. growing older means no more acting childish. many things i cant do cos im EIGHTEEN but that means more freedom too. not yet but soon. and people will look at me and expect of me differently. i dont want that. boo hoo.

so no more maid. gotta do the dishes myself and clear up any mess i create. i hate doing the dishes! more housework to be done. cos im the only girl (besides mummy) in the family and im expected to help out with the chores. unlike my two brothers. crap. whats this? we should have a fair share of work around the house. but they'll get nagged at by me for sure. wash your own plates! haha. at least i still can escape for one more week. excuse-i hafta study for my exams. haha.
no more playing princess thats for sure.

one day or almost two into the game. doing well. nobody has lost yet. keep up the good work? haha.

boy oh boy. i really cant wait. four days and counting to my long awaited holidays.
bmic hpi cellb maths
and its over!
i wanna go shopping.
get-novo shoes
-sling bag
-fox top
- clothes
-and more clothes
shop til i drop. although the drop part never happens.
i wanna have lotsa fun.
to krabi (maybe learn diving there?).
to the zoo?? hee.

diverting attention to my notes now.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

gosh.
just finished dinner. like now what time alrd still eat. but hungry.
found out this morning that the maid is gone. as in sent back. no more home cooked meals for a long long time.
i always find out only after the maids are gone. so uninformed.

so....slept for only about five hours. but felt good this morning. maybe becos of the long talk on the phone. im like so brave. my gosh. i cant believe i actually answered. and said lotsa other stuff too. man. my first time admitting. haha. i still cant believe it. but hope it made you glad hearing it and thanks for being so understanding.
nobody knows whats really gonna happen. one year can either be long or short. i wonder.
hmm...so got a game going on now. every message i receive makes me anticipate if its from that somebody. haha. cos i want you to lose. so mean of me. but. haa. i shall have no problem playing this game. makes me wonder how you're doing. hee.
so some people think i look crooked. okay. but im so not. haha.
and im actually a sensible girl. besides im the eldest and i've been through almost eighteen years in life so cant really be too immatured right? hee
more for you to find out. haha.
and im sorry for irritating...you wanna sleep yet? haha.

today's sermon was very very funny. i enjoyed myself laughing.
somebody asked me to be more alert. *argh* whats that for?
so got home early to study but now i end up blogging.

reading blog considered communicating not?? haha.

gonna make myself a glass of ice milo.
then off to study.
study hard.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

my earliest post ever.
last night i was preparing for bed at around two am when somebody messaged me. i replied and we ended up talking on the phone. haha. so we talked real long cos both of us couldnt sleep.
no doubt there were blushes here and there. it ended at around five am. went to sleep and didnt wanna wake up this morning. even skipped breakfast with mummy and daddy to sleep alil longer.

went to school for hpi revision lecture. ms chew gave us so many tips. haha. its gonna make our revision so much easier. actually shes not that bad. after that was fashion project all the way at home with nette. the silver markers ran outta ink. just the right time. gave me sucha hard time. supppose to meet steph and pass her her jacket. so hurry hurry hurry. and besides we were late. nette always has to leave things to the very last min. so i had to help her with it. it kinda became a group project instead. haha. so rush to school. got a phone call from steph on my way but it was a guy's voice. i had no idea who that was. i guessed azhar but he didnt say yes or no. just kept saying i know who you are but you dont know who i am? made me feel so bad. walked into school. saw them at one of the benches. azhar trying to cover his face. how smart. haha. passed steph her jacket with my house key inside. never realised it til azhar returned it to me. so handed in my project. finally. no more fashion. then waited for hannan to come down cos he bought me a sandwich. so sweet. went to get ice cream when i saw nic. hope he didnt think too much of it. ate at sports complex. steph say i dont know how to eat ice cream cos i was dripping all over. boo hoo. hung around for a while and left for home. had somebody walk me home cos i didnt have anyway to stop him. unless i injure him? haha. but i wouldnt do that. kinda freaked out when i thought i saw daddy's car. so funny.
yeah..so guess im gonna study today since i've got no more projects to complete. and its time i start studying.

mummy bought me this mp3 player. its in pink. so cool.
silas helping me upload songs into it now. yeah.

enjoying my two cheese deluxe hotbake sandwich.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

study day.
was able to wake up on time today. had a weird dream last night. it includes many people. but the one i didnt forget was about luu.

went to school for lecture-maths stats. boring. thought i was gonna sleep but i didnt. went to study with lorencia and chengchong. i really studied. waited for the tpiranhas babies to come cos im supposed to study with them but it was still early. joined them to study when they came.
but we didnt actually study cos we kept on talking. what else to expect when you put us together-noise! haha. sorry for all the noise we created. quite inconsiderate but we were having fun laughing. there was haha vie nash steph az sup nurul.
the talking and laughing went on. with steph's markers. haha looked terrible with all the 'love bites'. shes so daring to walk around looking like that. even played games. i almost won but vie beat me to it by one point. after that was lunch and then back for more fun. i couldnt study anymore so i slept. for about half an hour? woke up to to find a note steph wrote to me. so cute. we even played a word search created by steph. i won! ya. no surprise to think that i do word search almost everyday. hee.
then we left for white sands to get ju's bdae present.
got to the chalet for ju's surprise bdae party. steph vs ju in this guessing game. the loser drinks. they wanted me to join in but i so dont know how to play. ju thinks i've got the kinda face that drinks. haha. left early cos the rest left and i hafta complete fashion project.

almost forgot. this morning breakfast with mummy and daddy. my gosh. i kept my head down and just kept on eating. man.bombarded with questions. mummy knows so many things. but she tell me for what. i dont know how to react. just wanted to hurry finish breakfast and escape to school.

got a box of chocolates to accompany me throughout my late night of project later. still watching american's next top model. gonna get to the project. soon. hee.

valentine
by somebody

i've asked her out
with a bouquet of red & yellow flowers
now she's sitting there
listening to me sing
O what an ear sore, but i hope she'll find it ok

so here we go sitting across each other
she's listening and i am watching
so here we go sitting across each other
i'm wondering what she's thinking, my bloody valentine

O.. don't you know that you're my bloody valentine
the first of many girls i've actually asked out for valentine
hope the day was great and you had your laughs, had your fun

O my Valentine.. have i told you how pretty you looked today
O my Valentine.. i really enjoyed my day with you
O my Valentine.. did i disappoint at all
O my Valentine.. so when will it be our next date

O you're my Valentine
O you're my Valentine
O you're my Valentine
O i'm glad you're my Valentine

valentine's day.
although i had to go through it with an ugly pimple on my nose.
its a day i'll always remember.
somebody made it so memorable.

so the day begins with school. how sad to have school on valentine's day. ended at one. met at the void deck. got something real heavy-a vase with flowers specially arranged and two boxes of chocolates and a bottle of flower food to make the flowers last longer. how thoughtful.
then off to somewhere near home to fix up a jigsaw puzzle-300 pieces. a picture of a kitten and a puppy. started at two and completed it at seventeentwentyfour hours. had it framed up and signed. had fun and satisfaction for completing it. at least somebody didnt get too bored and found a motivation-which i had to suffer from. but it didnt happen. haha. got attacked by houseflies. had to keep moving to shoo them away.
then home to drop off the finished puzzle and to pick up the guitar. daddy peeped. its was so funny. i couldnt believe he did that. gosh. had me laughing. this daddy.
made our way to fish and co for dinner. journey on the bus there was quiet. hee. had lover's indulgence-set meal. soup of the day. seafood platter for two. ice cream. kola tonic/passion fruit. i talked alot. had prawns deshelled and mussels dug up for me. hee. fought over who should eat what. haha. wanted to amaze somebody with my big appetite but i failed to do so. bill came. the waiter brought a rose. thought he would give it to me. but he didnt. he had to pass it to somebody to pass it to me saying-for your loved one. my gosh.
then walked to east coast beach not forgetting to buy a bottle of water before that so somebody can sing better. hee. then found a place under this shelter thing cos the breakwater or water breaker. whatever you call that. was occupied. learnt some guitar notes. like A B C G. hope i can remember. then finally can hear the song somebody wrote for me. haha. mumbled the song but i can still hear the lyrics. real sweet. it really took lotsa courage and i appreciate it lots. i didnt sing as promised but somebody allowed me to break it. talked more. was asked to rate the date. i gave it 8/10. then took cabbed home. passed the gift to him. hope he likes it and he did.

so today was really an unforgettable day. what more can i ask for. dream date or not it doesnt really matter cos i feel so honoured to have somebody do so much for me. sure appreciate it. thank you from the bottom of my heart.

sweet dreams tonight.

Friday, February 10, 2006

look at the time now.
its already so late. just completed my lab reports. four of them. hafta thank lorencia and jeremy for their contributions. haha.

school's kinda fun today.hpi was funny and weird. everybody mugging for quiz but rbc gave us clues about what was coming out. almost everything. she cant teach. but shes good at giving tips though.
last fashion tutorial. and lynnette and i didnt know we had to show what we have done. so unprepared. couldnt answer when mr hung asked me questions. so just talked crap. after that can go. haha. had lotsa fun laughing and joking around with lia. had a freaky encounter in the toilet but nothing much. haha.
met luu and baldwin after lesson. saw nurul and dee. dee asked me if my wound was bandaged up cos she wanted to see. haha. like so sadist. chatted with lorencia. met hannan. chatted with alan for awhile.hannan came up with this brilliant plan of how i can dont talk. haha. didnt stick with it for long. then off for dinner at bk. to jigsaw world and around tm. and to mac. and saw magg. haha. ya.
didnt talk much today but laughed a whole lot. enjoyed myself. had somebody send me home too. or should i say...walked me home? haha.

so..yesterday went to accompany steph ungku and farisi for dinner. then to the void deck. drew ungku's kampung. check out steph's version. haha. played bingo for the first time. and i won the most. haha. home it was. when somebody hinted me regarding dinner today. haha.

was just thinking. and realised exams are really so soon. two weeks doesnt seem far. and after that its holiday! cant wait cant wait....but gotta get down to business and really study. no more supps for me. thats for sure. and fashion project. gotta get it done. no more procrastination! stop being lazy!

the train of thoughts going through my mind never stops.

bedtime.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

whatever.
today was a long and tiring day. went to school only to find out that there wasnt any maths lecture. so went for breakfast. then lab. jyothi is so boring. i really fell asleep. could hardly keep my eyes open. didnt do much in lab today. caught an interesting discovery channel show in cable tv room. whats with the lip plates and stick fighting??
couldnt wait for school to be over. had alil fun during our last psy tutorial. lorencia and i cursing each other. shes so gonna get cramps threehundredsixtyfive days a year. haa.
so i've got myself a new nickname.

lost one of my double eyelids for two days already. had to walk around school feeling ugly. double eyelid come back! hate it when this happens.

done six psy online quizzes today. so many quizzes and lab tests this week. tomorrow too. cant wait for it to be all over. exams too. thats when the fun begins.

dont know whats wrong. but im feeling moody. crap.
tried uploading chingay pictures. but cant.
wound hurts.
this is one of my few not-so-good days. just cant help feeling this way.

life is just full of decision-making. everyday. big decisions or small ones. they just bother me so much sometimes. and it comes down to priorities. i know my priorities but sometimes they arent what i want to do.
and sometimes i just think of all the ifs.

been waking up late. this is so not me. im gonna sleep earlier.
hate rushing in the morning.
and tomorrow will definitely be a better day.
im gonna wake up on time.
my double eyelid gonna reappear.
school gonna be short.
im gonna study.
feeling much better already.

swinging in the mood.

Monday, February 06, 2006

dreaming of you
by selena

late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you and i wish ona star
that somewhere you are thinking of me too

cos im dreaming of you tonight
til tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and theres nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me

wonder if you ever see me and i wonder if you know im there
if you looked in my eyes would you see whats inside
would you even care

i just wanna hold you close but so far
all i have are dreams of you
so i wait for the day and the courage to say
how much i love you

i'll be dreaming of you tonight
til tomorrow i'll be holding you tight
and theres nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming about you and me

i cant stop dreaming of you
i cant stop dreaming
i cant stop dreaming of you

late at night when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you
and i still cant believe that you came up to me and said
i love you
i love you too

i'll be dreaming with you tonight
til tomorrow and for all my life
and theres nowhere in the world i'd rather be
than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly

finally.
its over. no more performances. at least for now. we did not bad today. had fun too. performed once. but did a few more for the residents who werent so priviledged to watch at the audience stand.
took lotsa photos today too. esp with my spice girls gang.
peggie was high today. crazy girl. but i love her lots.
hafta wait for michelle to sent me the pictures.
went for dinner. missed the last train so had to take cab home from ang mo kio. today was valerie's birthday. bought her a mud pie. haha. shared the pie around. and everybody got cream on their faces. so funny. valerie was feeding me. didnt want the cream on my face again so she tried turning the pie BUT it dropped onto my costume. how great was that. haha. but it was funny.
i've got myself a gorilla! anthony! haha hes so cute. he has lashes that really curls. he keeps saying i've got a sexy leg. becos of my socks (which is actually my bandage). its cool. like whatever. haha.

surprisingly not tired. but my eyes hurt. dont know why.
didnt take my medicine today. now wonder my wound hurts just now. but its healing real well.

so theres school tomorrow. at eight. dont wanna wake up so early. but i'll be a good girl that is if i can wake up on time. and besides i've gotta start studying this week and start on my fashion project.
and i sure wont mind going shopping too. with all the money i collected from chinese new year. godma gave me another hundred bucks today. hee.

craving for ice milo.

Sunday, February 05, 2006

success.
chingay performance was a success today! everybody played so well! so proud of the strikeforce!
my first ever chingay performance. and its not a disappointing one. all the practices are worth it. hope everybody enjoyed our performance. i sure had fun.

woke up later than i wanted-to study. psychology test was alright. not like what i expected. got to pa and found out about the changes to the sequence. everybody werent sure about them which was quite confusing and irritating to me-who came late. i didnt know what was going on. did everything the same as on friday. change. makeup. hair. glitter. then it was rushing time to orchard. on the train where we got lotsa stares. yesterday i heard somebody say-'woah. national day arh'. i was like-doesnt he know what chingay is? haha.
unhappy things do happen but i dont wish to talk about it.
friday's preview was bad....but today just changed it all.
got home late on friday like today. but was even later. like 1am? and we still had to download the matrnum( dont know how to spell) and practise ten perfect times of the sequence with it before going to bed. i almost fell alsleep doing it. but today im not really tired.

haha sup az were there. sup said she saw me but i was on the other side. haha. didnt appear on tv. sorry to disappoint some people. but waiting for the papers tomorrow. got lotsa pictures taken.

thought i could finally say its over. but theres still a performance tomorrow. then it will be OVER. and i can catch up with whatevers been happening. cos i've really lost connection with the world.
so sad that i cant join my family for lunch buffet and dinner at ricky korkor's house tomorrow. its silas birthday. boo hoo. i hafta give it a miss. im sorry.

on the way home i whispered a birthday song to valerie rock. haha. its her birthday today. and i was the first to wish her.

so...somebody asked me out on valentine's day on thursday. didnt give a definite answer but i really didnt mind. first person to actually ask. and i guess it takes lotsa courage to ask? i really appreciate it. how can i not go? haha. so...yeah...dont mind...but have no idea what to expect cos i'll be...erm...shy? haha. oh gosh.
no jogging please.
kinda looking forward to it. hee.
valentine's day falls on a study break week this year. first time not spending it in school. not gonna be able to see my friends. and all the fun having to see friends showing affection to each other. those were the times.

all the hair spray and makeup have done harm to my hair and face. not sleeping yet cos theres no way im using a hair dryer after such harsh treatment. so many dots on my forehead. ugly.
gotta give extra care. just hate makeup. spoils complexion.

hungry.

Thursday, February 02, 2006

what a day.
im tired. real tired. just wish i could go to sleep like now. but just remembered that i've got psychology exam this saturday. which is two days away. tomorow's out for studying. so i've only got tonight! just finished my lab report which is due tomorrow. a load off my shoulder. but theres still maths quiz tomorrow. havent been attending maths lect. so dont know whats going on in chpt five. my test is gonna be blank. and i really mean it. just filling in my name register no class date and start stoning. i can so forsee tomorrow.
my loa is still pending. like what crap! im going home after maths stats tomorrow. to prepare for chingay. will skip bmic lab maths stats tut and cell b tut without a loa.just great. we're advised not to bring any bags to pa. but whats a girl gonna do without a bag?! no bus to transport us to orchard for both days. even greater. so we'll be in our costumes and makeup and hairdos and taking the mrt. will get all the attention i never wanted.
and im so gonna need more painkillers. they work miracles for me. takes my pain away. but they're running out. so mummy gonna get more for me from the clinic to sustain me for tomorrow saturday and sunday. got informed today that we're gonna perform to mr prime minister on sunday at ang mo kio. rush rush rush it will be on sunday. so many things to do.

cant wait for all these to be over.

can walk better but still limping alil. i want to get well. be able to walk and perform. its just tomorrow. i wanna go through everything. painless and doing my best. with energy and have fun.

accompanied lorencia to eng school to photocopy some stuff. after she's done we wanted to have some fun so we photocopied our hands. haha. wanted to do the same for our faces but guess it wouldnt be sane if somebody happen to walk past. but it was fun. got us laughing the whole way out. eng school is no longer boring to us. haha. and im sure we'll be back.

had tpiranhas meeting at saa. they touched on a few issues- training attendence. punctuality. respect for seniors. maintaining our team's image. being able to differentiate team with personal matters. no pda. and reshuffling of some jobs in the team. im now the assistant treasurer. no idea why. but i wanna be a responsible treasurer and do my best and assist charlotte to the best of my ability. and hope people cooperates with us. cos i know what it feels like to hafta keep chasing people for money. not nice. hafta be so thick-skinned. not the 'funnest' and easiest job.

im really tired. eyes are so heavy and they hurt. but i gotta study for psychology.
lots to study.
not gonna leave any work til last minute anymore. i've had my fair share of panicking and feeling stressed out. almost puked. i dont like it. so i will start work early and plan my time wisely.

hoping to wake up feeling good and better.

psychology time.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

painful day.
today i woke up on time. but in pain. the wound got worse. went to school as usual. limped around all day. felt so insecure becos of all the unwanted attention. did my csas speech. a real quick one. not even two minutes to my surprise. i thought i would exceed. ms chong said that it was good. *smiles* BUT i was laughing too much. a way to release all my nervous energy.
mummy wanted to come pick me up in a cab cos her car was with uncle albert. but how lame. i just live opposite school. the cab driver will so think that we're weird. haha. so i embarked on my longest journey home from school ever. thanks to the overhead bridge i had sucha hard time. the school just doesnt spare a thought for unfortunate people like me.
mummy forced me to go to the doc. found out i had infection. doc tan washed my wound and bandaged it alil. boo hoo. it hurts. he even said if it was deeper i would have hurt the nerve. scary. so was given more medicine just after i finished my flu medicine. sad. hafta change my bandages two times a day. the nurse scribbled something on my painkillers package. i took so long to figure out what it was. it reads-will sleep. man. i dreaded it. dont wanna feel drowsy like the previous time. but apparently it aint as strong.

i was contemplating whether to go for chingay prac. i wanted to go badly cos its the last prac bfore friday's preview. although i wont be able to do much there except to sit and watch and play the beats on my lap. but daddy didnt allow me to go.
praying real hard that i will get better so that i can perform. i really want to. and not let all the prac and hard work and blue blacks be for nothing. i want to get better badly.

walking is so difficult now. so much for living in a mansionette. my time to play princess yet again.
so there was nothing much i could do except watch tv and go online.
found out that silas joined rugby. that makes us all three siblings rugby players. how cool. we're sucha sports family.
daddy- bowling
mummy- table tennis. bowling.
me- netball. rugby.
silas- track and field. rugby.
stephanus- rugby.
this is cool. have i already said that?
more chatting. found out some interesting stuff. like somebody just lives next to the childcare mummy teaches in. and daddy will be proud that somebody says hes cool. haha.
and some people provide good resources. whatever. haha

wanted to wait til your birthday to give it to you. but it doesnt matter. = )

sunflowers are dying. boo hoo.

hate being in pain.

last day of cny holiday.
woke up really late today. was shocked when i saw the time-1130am.
supposed to go to ad's place but chose not to becos chingay prac changed time. so sad i couldnt go to ad's. it would have been fun.

lunch was at 'muthu's curry'. a very classy and nicely done up indian restaurant. the waiters were all indians except for one and were all dressed in chinese costume with the hat. so cute.
the food came. almost all the dishes were spicy. so i only took fish from the curry and potato with rice. not forgetting two glasses of drinks to stand by. daddy asked me if i could take the food. and said i must learn so even if i got an indian boyfriend i would have no problem. haha. was sniffing away throughout and was the first to finish eating.

got injured during chingay prac today. rehearsed the whole sequence right from the top. while walking in the tower crashed into me. a few times. i thought the first hit was an accidental step from ei ling and i tried to walk faster to avoid another. but was i wrong. i got hit at the back of my ankles time and time again. just couldnt walk fast enough to avoid it until somebody helped push me away. i was in pain. i stepped to the side. thought the pain would go away but i didnt realise how serious it was until i went to the toilet. i was bleeding on the left ankle. the right was minor. irenaus helped to dress my wound with plaster and tissue. or should i say toilet paper. haha. there were limited resources.
went through the rest of the prac without the drum and not doing actions. but was in pain. and running into positions was inevitable.
thanks to everyone who showed concern.
forgotten to bring my keys. had to wake somebody up to open the door for me.
wasnt looking forward to bath time cos the wound would hurt like crazy.
had to dress my own wound. i know nothing about first aid. so no skirts for the next few days to avoid being lauged at-the way i dress my wound. wearing an ankle guard on the left to secure the bandage.
walking is pain.
movement is limited.

gotta go prepare my 2min csas speech for tml.
hope i can wake up on time tml. or should i say later.
time really flies.
a month has gone by just like that. but im glad for everything that has happened. and for everybody who has made a difference in that one month.

in pain.