another side of me

Saturday, February 24, 2007

summer touch league
first round today.
against hocus pocus
8-1.
nine players.
one down.
eight players.
we survived.

ruby and i were pissed.
im disappointed.
with all the people that couldnt make it last minute.
talk about commitment.
i played second half without any subs.
oh my.
twenty freakin minutes.
i was so tired that i became hysterical.
our sub box was so bloody pathetic.
only two players.
while the other team had eight subs alright.

okay.
i've complained enough.

long journey home with yam.
then went for a lil shopping trip alone.
went to my distant cousin's house for steamboat.
ryan is so adorable.
sakae sushi's yusheng is so delicious.
i swear i've been eating alot lately.
and i love uncle albert.
so random.
but whatever.

haha hafizah hamzah
please get well soon!
i wanna play with you.
have a speedy recover!
see you on the field in a month's time!

alright.
i gotta go study alil now.
cos the boyfriend say i cant go out tomorrow if i dont study.
pfft.
exams.

i am tired.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

chinese new year seems to be over
cos study week is here.
and i got called weird for studying.
haha.

rugger hugger says:
study week more important now!
lorencia says:
whaa
lorencia says:
whatever happened to yoU!

lorencia says:
oh no
lorencia says:
u are wierddddd

lorencia says:
cannot
lorencia says:
no
lorencia says:
u must study unwillingly
lorencia says:
thats the shimona i know

thanks alot.

so i studied today.
been quite a good girl.
hope the effort pays off.

ang bao collection bad this year.
but still gonna stock up for some shopping after exams.
and perhaps a trip to bangkok too.

met luu today.
i miss her lots
and i finally gotta see her after sucha long time.
she bought me a whole big bag of stuff.
with goodies and lip balm and a dancing spongebob.
thank you!
catching up with old times and other stuff
and attacking the boyfriend with silly questions like we always do.
and i saw dee too.
miss this girl.

i love luu
and dee
and lorencia kan
and the boyfriend.

goodnight world.

Friday, February 16, 2007

wee.
term tests are over.
but
stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid yee mon.
yee monster.
if i fail acm
it's all his fault!
angry.

two down
with two more to go.
i dont want any supps this semester.

valentine's day was nice.
minus that lil incident.
simple but sweet.
thank you boyfriend.

chinese new year is almost here.
but i dont wanna go out.
i look ugly!
my face is peeling from navy's touch.
and cold sore on my lip is hurting real bad
although it's getting better.
dont really have the festive mood this time.
not alot of new stuff to wear either.
oh well.
i'll just make it up after exams.

happy lunar new year.
enjoy the holiday.

Monday, February 12, 2007

the tummy is feeling weird.
havent had appetite the entire day.
i have no idea why.
hate the feeling.

lorencia gave us our early valentine's day gift today.
cupcake!
yum on appearance and on the taste buds.
it looked so nice i didnt bare eat it.
thank you my dear.
much cupcake love back.

kinda completed mct log book today.
at least we've got that done
and can really concentrate on mct now.

i cant wait for the holidays.

Sunday, February 11, 2007

yesterday
we had touch competition at changi naval base.
tp sent two teams.
my team played rp and we drew 0-0.
then came my first ever sudden death and we won.
coolness.
but too many sudden deaths is not good for the heart.
we won sp in the semis
and both tp teams met in the finals to fight for the gold cup.
we drew 1-1.
so we had to play sudden death again.
we meant for it to be like training. or a friendly match.
you know.
no hard feelings.
anyways the gold cup was for tp to take.
despite having lost the coin toss.
not being able to choose the side of the field and having to walk to the further sub box and wearing those ugly red bibs
we won.
it really proved that we're not the weaker team
and anything can happen.

i didnt mean for the outcome to be this way.
i didnt know winning would mean losing a friendship.
it's stupid.

a whole day of sun makes my face hurts.
it is red.
and hurting like mad.
i cant make faces.
i hope it doesnt peel.

today
shopping with the boyfriend for chinese new year clothes.
but came home with nothing.
saw nothing i like.
boo.
there was this shirt length dress i tried at forever21 and i like it.
but when i went back it was gone. i couldnt find it.
double boo.

had much fun at the arcade.
racing the boyfriend in daytona.
i beat him in the first two races.
but he beat me in the last two.
so we're even.
and i got a higher rank and survived longer than him in a game of shooting.
haa.

all butter chocolate chunk cookies from marks and spencer is delicious.

Friday, February 09, 2007

the knee hurts bad.
then i realised the elbow hurts too.
i hate getting bruised.
i am afraid of falling.
and afraid of pain.
that explains why i dont dive!

you know how some people are two worlds apart but yet they feel for each other.
like how my friends are so different from me.
and we pursue different things in life.
but somehow we met somewhere down the path of life and developed a feeling for each other.
a relationship.
friendship.
i used to regret stuff i did in my life.
decisions i made that led to something else.
or wonder about the what ifs.
but now that i think of it.
if it wasnt that way
i wouldnt have met everybody i know today.
so i just wanna say i love you all.
and each and everyone of you are special people that help me lead life without regrets.
(this is like an early happy valentine's day message to you my friends. who says valentine's day is just for couples)

i am nice to those who are nice.
and real mean to people who dont deserve it.
becos sometimes it doesnt pay to be nice.
not that im expecting something back in return.
but you get what i mean.

i need shopping!

Thursday, February 08, 2007

finally arts appreciation presentation is done and over with.
i didnt do a good job on personal response part.
but im glad it's over.

i fell during training today.
boo.
bruise on the knee.
hurts.
it all happened when i chased steph and i kinda lost balance and fell onto the hard ground.
it looked like i dived
but no i fell actually.
i crawled to get myself up cos it was hurting
the next moment i realised steph fell down too
and tried.
hers was a serious case.
get well steph.
hope you're able to play on saturday.
and and
i had this weird reaction to the deep heat spray that vie playfully sprayed on me.
i started itching all over and turning red.
strange.
never experienced such stuff before.

things always happen for a reason.
the impact may not be obvious now
but it will be sooner or later
and if you think hard enough.
and im glad that some stuff happened and made me a better person.
people learn from mistakes
and they deserve a chance.

tired.
tomorrow is gonna be a long day.
so i'll hit the sheets.
goodnight world.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

it's time for serious studying.
but
i still went ikea shopping today!
and i bought my long desired heart with hands cushion!
smiles.
lorencia and chengchong and stacia bought small little stuff too.
chengchong and diana bought their snakes.
i love ikea stuff.

valentine's day is just next week.
and shopping at ikea gave me lots of ideas.
but i cant do anything for my friends and boyfriend.
unlike other years.
cos there seriously isnt any time.
im so sorry.
i'll make it up like maybe next year?
haha.
unlike my littlest friend whose bin caught fire while preparing our gifts.
i'll make it up to her after the exams for sure.
inspite of her truthful words today.
i'll still be nice.

i miss playing with my friends on the field.

red black and white is a nice combination.

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

we had a long break of five hours today.
what a waste of time.
me lorencia chengchong benjamin stacia diana and friend
we went to bedok for breakfast-porridge.
after which we headed to diana's condo for some slacking.
then back to school.
no work done during that long break as planned.

it's bad enough that there is term test on valentine's day.
whats worse is there's also term test on the fifteenth.

everything is so in between.
there's valentine's day
and term tests
chinese new year
then exams.

boo.

i'm so gonna make up for the lost chinese new year shopping after exams.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

we went for dinner.
and there was this stupid lady while leaving after she has finished dinner with her family laughed at daddy for sitting on two chairs.
fuck man.
how dare she do that.
daddy is sitting on two chairs cos he just had his operation and need the extra support and height.
she is in her late twenties and yet she behaves so chidlishly.
how shallow.
fuck her.
im pissed.
she not only pointed at daddy and laughed
she got the attention of another family member and together they laughed and gossiped about daddy while they walk away.
my gosh.
their behavior leave me speechless.
they are such mean people.

the weekends are gone in a flash.
another week of hectic is here.
ever wonder why there are only two weekends and five weekdays?
this is unfair.
we gotta work more than we get to rest.
and most of the time
the rest isnt sufficient.
life.

goodnight world.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

mood swings.

caution.
grumpy post.

today is a bad day.
fucked up day.
mood swings.
then came a bad training session.
dont wanna talk about it much.
it's over anyway.

and so still no parcel.

then i gotta use the brother's computer cos the laptop cant be used due to some battery reasons.
and all my projects have to be put on a hold.
pfft.
so i just read an email saying they cancelled my order for the boots.
fuck.
now what.
just when i thought everything was confirmed and the boots were on their way
i received that mail.
what's wrong with the credit card company's line?
they couldnt get through to them to confirm the card's information for transaction so they decided to cancel my order.
my boots is in a damn pathetic state.
its beyond use.
and the boots i want is sold out in singapore.
then this had to happen to my online order.
so fucked up.
what am i gonna wear for my upcoming competitions?
and cant they have new nice boots here in singapore.
i want my nike tiempo mystic white/gold!

and the clinic is so ineffiecient.
they didnt even bother calling me.
or so they did but it was a missed call and they didnt bother calling back.
so i had to take the initiative to call to enquire about my blood test results.
they cant tell me over the freaking phone.
i hafta make an extra trip there and have the doctor tell it to me.

super busy right now with so many presentations and tests and etc.
with upcoming term tests and exams.
i so need that holiday.

pissed at the world.