another side of me

Thursday, September 27, 2007

i cant wait for my new blog to be up.
an emotion explosion.
and definitely private.
like how i intended for this blog to be.
but.

after fitness training
i had to cope with the fresh blister i sustained
and conquer the slippery ground
sliding my way through pillars and people.
cautious every step of the way.
any wrong would cos me every last bit of pride i have in me.
embarrassment.
the long train of thoughts accompanied me on my way home
they made the journey seem short.
and im glad i made it home safe.

i miss sleeping in big tees.

goodnight world.

i saw a cavader!
i so hate my supervisor right now.

i cant be more traumatised than this.
too much shock to take for a day.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

happy sexy 19th natalie dear!

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

today
the setting sun
and the rays it shone forth
was just breath-taking.

then
it reminded me of how i havent been in touch with nature
to enjoy and appreciate what it brings.
awe in simplicity.

Monday, September 24, 2007

i am so so sad.
my forever21 tee is gone.
it was just yesterday.
boo.

i guess i just hafta show people who i really am by being myself.
its up to them to create their own impression
to judge to criticise.
its ultimately who i am that matters.
as long as i stay true to myself.
its those who accept me as who i am that will love me for who i am
and also love me for who im not.

acceptance is not approval.

i will never ever tolerate smoking.
cant even stand the thought of it.

change is a decision
not an ability.
it is limited by one's mindset.
inability shows weakness.

Friday, September 21, 2007

bye bye boyfriend.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

a part of me died today.

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

awkwardness
even after so long.

Monday, September 17, 2007

just not meant to be.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

what would you do
if for a fact
you knew you were losing someone.

the problem is
people only realise when it's too late.
when there are so many opportunities to have something done
there is nothing.

then will the regrets of if-only set in.

it always takes a fall for people to learn.

salvation.

i wish you happiness.

Monday, September 10, 2007

so
first day of sip.
can't say too much
bcos of confidentiality
which have been stressed on.
quite a relaxing fun day doing nothing much besides standing and walking around watching.
had our briefing
and assigned project titles.
mine being 'morphometrics and pelage characterisation'
which entitles me to a bintan trip.
but we can't start anything yet until we've gone through the animal workshop and health checkup which i have no idea when.
supervisor is jomer's friend which means trouble.
boy did he ask plenty.
and all knowledge as usual i have returned to whoever who taught.
no ecsape from school cos here comes homework.
looking at the various preserved samples was really an eye opener.
gone through developing x-ray film in the dark room
pig x-ray.
helping to position the almost hundred kilogram pig.
seen the rooms full of monkeys rabbits and swines.
pigs scream okay.
dressed in our scrub suit which was baggy and kept dropping and had a neckline so low.
have our own desk and computer.
people aren't too bad.
verdict: not bad a day at all.

but here comes the con.
sip location is the upstairs of the mortuary.
lift access is where the huge gate is past the loading and unloading area.
when left open anything inside can be seen.
not that i don't wanna ignore
but it's right in front.
i don't ever wanna see no dead body.
i would freak out.
and no walking about anyhow
cos i may just end up where i dont wanna be.
and
i needa go to sembawang for a few months.
oh the distance.

i keep giving myself reasons to stay.

Sunday, September 09, 2007

from plans to delays to vanishing games.

bye bye holidays.

postponed.

it's been one lovely fulfilling week.
though the weekends rained down on me.

<3
baby checked into shimotel
stay overs
shopping
and more shopping
had beautiful manicured nails by luu
went crazy at mustafa
back to touch training
had my fair share of muscle aches
home deliveries
massage
movie catching
birthday wishes
birthday songs on board in many languages
bbq with the crazy girlfriends over at chong's
marshmallows
games and non stop laughter
donut birthday cakes
shisha for the very first time
mixed berry and sweet melon
hung out with the boyfriend and gang
driving on the fast lane
through fort canning tunnel and gap
haji lane loving with lil steph and rubyrubes
dinner with the girlfriends
party with the ex classmates
late nights
cuddles
hugs
and kisses
much much love.
<3

thank you baby.
it's especially you.

september loving.

Saturday, September 08, 2007

bbq in pictures.

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

absolutely in love with touch.

Saturday, September 01, 2007

i just wanna stock up on money
and go on a huge shopping spree
all at one go.
bags after bags.
make me a happy girl.

that's what september does.