another side of me

Thursday, November 30, 2006

training just pissed me off today.
all the selfish and lazy and lack of initiative people.
i didnt like today's games at all.
it'll only work out when there's chemistry between players on the field.
seriously.

congrats to tp titans on their win over ite today!
a game well played.
a well deserved second place in pol ite.

tp vs np
7 - 0

tomorrow is our last pol ite game.
it's gonna be over so soon.
but the journey was worthwhile.
i just wish i could do more.
i still feel unsatisfied.
there's so much more i can do and wanna do.

i felt like super woman today.
rushing from class to watch the titans' match.
then to play captain's ball.
to training.
back to captain's ball.
woo.
sweat it all out.

im so prouda the captain's ball team.
they made it so far.
and we made the almost impossible thing happen in our last game.
i felt intimidated by this one particular girl guy whatever person.
first time i felt so small and weak.
i couldnt do much.
but thanks to the effort of my team mates
we won by one.
a good job well done to everybody on the team.
i had fun.
we came in third!
proud.

i love this week.
it's just so nice.
and i get to rejoice over so many wins.
smiles.
im a happy girl.
love the boyfriend lots.

i wanna hold your hand.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

school was just all about waiting today.
quiz from 8 to 845.
then it was waiting time
for whole 5 hours
just for another hour of lecture.
like what crap.
wasting our time.

but the weather was nice.

after school
i went shopping for something to wear for this friday's bucks ball.
and i came across this top.
a beaded silk corset
with a large tie-back behind.
i like it.
and i'll get it if i do make it to the ball.
it aint decided yet.

lovely.

Monday, November 27, 2006

tp vs nyp
2 - 0

bad game.
really bad game.
i swear i've never dropped so many balls in my life before.
its definitely not complacency.

brought kitty to school today.
naughty lil ktty cat.

better get down to studying soon.
quiz tomorrow.
presentation on wednesday.
drama presentation next week.
mbio presentation.
animal health and disease assignment.
i've got not enough time for all of this.
i feel bad.
i cant contribute much to my group.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

oasis touch
caused me a bruise on my shin
a twisted ankle
an extremely badly sprained thumb
and additional drainage to my energy level.
i feel so handicapped.

theres mbio quiz on tuesday
and csas presentation on wednesday.
im like dead.
no time.
no motivation.
bad for the academic.

this week is packed.
i cant wait for friday
when all of the rushing madness will come to an end.
and then there's getting drunk and staying over too.
friday
will come real soon.

tuesday-dress.

i desperately need rest.
goodnight world.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

so im up at six am on a weekend.
when i can wake up much later on weekday mornings.
the sleep aint enough
this whole week through.

gonna journey down for oasis touch at padang soon.
today and tomorrow.
so this whole week i kinda got no rest.
its either training or game or oasis touch.

yesterday
was just a bad day for me.
everything's gone absolutely wrong.
i didnt even get to go to the adidas sale.
boo.
i felt that nothing could go right for me the whole day through.
until our game.
tp vs rp
4 - 0
im prouda my team.
we played so much better as a team compared to the first game.
training the day before was horrid.
but i guess it did something to us.
it woke us up.
we really wanted it.
and we played like we did.
im happy.
but i felt that i could do alot better.
i didnt do enough.
i didnt do what i wanted.
unsatisfied.
but there are three more games for me to do something.
for me to prove myself.

next week aint gonna be an easy week either.
captain's ball is so tempting.
but i've got lots to consider.

i've yet to come up with a name for kitty.
any suggestions?
tag!

time to leave to meet the team for breakfast.
oasis touch here i come.

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

havent been able to blog and do stuff on the net.
cos the cousin is staying over since its the holidays.
and my brother being his normal selfish self.
it ends up that i gotta sacrifice and not use the laptop.
boo.

yesterday was our first ip game.
tp vs sp
3-0
we didnt do well.
we got so much more room to perform.
and i hope yesterday's game was just a warm up to prepare us for this friday's game against rp.
there's no room for mistakes anymore.

now im really tired.
i couldnt wake up this morning.
but thanks to kitty whose being its usual playful self woke me up.
this week is a trying week.
theres training on monday
game on tuesday
training on thursday
game on friday
oasis touch on saturday.
and im still considering if i should go for training today-wednesday.
i've only got sunday to rest and recovery before another week of trainings and ips.
it sure doesnt help that school starts at eight every other day.

oh well.

Monday, November 20, 2006

this morning i woke up feeling different.
i didnt drag myself outta bed.
cos im looking forward to this week.
the week of ips.
im so excited.
for tomorrow.
for friday.
and next week too.
i cant wait.
i cant wait.

so animal lab is cancelled.
i've got no school today.
i'll bring kitty to school next monday instead.

excited excited.
wonder what ips will bring this year.

pink shoelaces.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

the word of yesterday was
off

i was totally off during training.
everything was just wrong.
shimo too flat.
shimo not there.
shimo this.
shimo that.
i puked everything out.
nothing much but liquid.
i couldnt even catch balls.
i dont know why.
i felt so distracted.
by nothing.
i just didnt feel like talking.
i was off form.
i wasnt myself.
i was disappointed at the end.
i apologise to my team mates.

i just wanted to go home.
i just wanted to go to the boyfriend.

on my way home
something caught my eye.
a kitten.
i played with it for awhile and decided to bring it home.
it sure cheered me up.
as usual
mummy freaked out
but daddy let me keep it.

it's a rascal.
naughty playful lil kitty cat.
and its toilet trained.
it's fearless.
and very very curious.

mummy gets agitated by it.
so i'm gonna let my boyfriend bring it home.
i'm gonna miss this rascal.
daddy is falling in love with it too

it was right beside me.
watching my fingers as they type.
waiting to attack.
naughty lil kitty cat.
it just fell asleep on my thigh.
that cutie pie.

ip is just 7 days away!

goodnight world.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

this world is so complicated.
cos the people that make this world are so complex.

trust
the obligation or responsibility imposed on a person in whom confidence or authority is placed.

people make trust difficult.
it aint a two way thing anymore.
it's so hard to trust.

but im glad i've got those few people whom i can trust.
and for them i'd do the same.

director's cup yesterday.
mixed team.
we won all the matches til the last match.
we just lost by 3.
boo.
a fight even broke out.
so we're 2nd of our group.
will proceed to the semis and finals on wednesday.
first we played in the hot sun.
then we switched indoors bcos of the rain.
lotsa delay.
but had fun.
im like red now.
and the body is aching.
blisters are killing me.

and some people obviously have no sportsmanship.
it's so not worth being nice to them.

had self training the past week.
and charlotte pointed out something i always do.
stopping in front of the defender when i side step or fake.
besides that i know i gotta work on my passes.
they're too hard and too lateral.
sometimes even resulting in forward passes.
i'll work on them.
ips is so close now.

efficiency
has a whole new meaning to me.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

more than words

saying i love you
is not the words i want to hear from you
it's not that i want you
not to say but if you only knew
how easy
it would be to show me how you feel
more than words
is all you hafta do to make it real
then you wouldnt hafta say
that you love me
cos i already know

what would you do
if my heart was torn in two
more than words to show you feel
that your love for me is real
what would you say
if i took those words away
then you couldn't make things new
just by saying i love you

now that i've tried to
talk to you and make you understand
all you hafta do is
close your eyes and just reach out your hands
and touch me
hold me close dont ever let me go
more than words
is all i ever needed you to show
then you wouldnt hafta say
that you love me
cos i'd already know

today is bring your dog to school day!
haha.
nah. we needed dog for animal lab.
so fun.
the dogs made lab fun. or else it would have been dry.

i was tired.
but still there was training.
selection day.
and there was fitness as usual.
i think i did well today.
i gave it my best.
and im so proud of dee.
she did well too.
we did well together.
i made it into the ip team.
smile smile smile.
but i still dont know where i stand in the team.
i wonder if there were only twelve would i have been selected.

i spoilt my keyboard.
boo.
the 'i' came out.
i hope i can fix it back.

tired!

goodnight world.