Saturday, April 29, 2006
saturdays.
im beginning to dread saturdays.
cos im always bored at home when there are no plans made.
last night wasnt good. just before bed i was thinking about studies.
and i really felt very stressed about it all.
year two. im tired of taking supps. tired of all the studying. all the wordy notes.
cramping all the info in.
why must we go through that. i just feel like i cant do it anymore. just so sick and tired.
thinking of the tests and exams ahead. can i get through poly life.
will i even wanna continue studying after that.
sigh.
so all i did today was ice my thumb and rot in bed watching tv.
how sad.
i could've gone to turf city with the rest but i chose not to.
the distance and the possibility of seeing baby made me decide so.
i cant get to see baby today.
and i guess seeing somebody i love is a great deal to me.
i gotta get used to this.
so i wont feel as strongly the next time it happens again.
cant wait for today to end.
Friday, April 28, 2006
i hate this.
i've got hpi lecture later but i have no idea where it is held.
im all alone in the library killing time.
i've decided not to go. cos my friend isnt going too.
and they never tell us the venue what.
sigh sigh.
but baby in the gym. how.
bleah.
im not going. yup. that's it.
so guess i gotta wait for baby now.
still got lotsa time to kill.
argh.
so.
the first week of school is finally over.
school has been quite alright.
but the holidays will always be better.
its always the same. pay attention for the first hour and the second hour i'll get restless.
went for acad advising. found out hpi got no lab. yeah.
i have no idea what mgen is all about. what mendel crap?
if he didnt study the plant we wouldnt needa study mgen.
aimm is like hpi. and our lecturer is alvin poh. crap.
what else. what else.
so tutorials are gonna start next week.
monday is labour day so school's off.
and there's ccn day on 26th may and vesak day and on certain wednesdays school will be off too.
cant wait for those days.
just met supi.
haha.
im glad i have her as company for awhile. shes going off at six.
i'll go see what i can do on the net while waiting.
sigh.
hate being alone in school.
Thursday, April 27, 2006
shopping trip with lorencia yesterday was fun.and a fruitful one indeed.i wasnt bored. its just my face you puny dwarf. haha.first was school to sell off our books then we headed to town. supposedly for a movie.the movie was at twelve fourty but we waited so long for the bus that we were only at bedok at around twelve twenty.so we had to give it a miss.headed for shopping straight away.to far east. main purpose- my fred perry bag.we shopped around and had lunch cos the shop was still closed.both of us bought some stuff. then at the bag shop that puny lorencia spotted a bag she liked too.we were so retarted. cos we didnt know if we should get the bags.i was in a dilemma between a sling bag and a hand bag. wanted so much to get both. greedy me.lorencia called up some people to ask for opinions. we took so long to decide that when we went back to the shop it was closed. so we had to shop around to kill time til the shop opened again.lorencia liked the bag so so much that she convinced herself its real (she told me its fake. and that they were just cheating our money). heck it. we still bought them. haha.the time we spent there didnt allow us to make a trip to bugis. so it was back to school.anyway we were already satisfied with our purchases.love falling asleep in baby's arms.gonna meet up with baby for lunch later in school.i got no school yesterday and today!it still feels like holiday.love today's weather.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
first day of school.was on duty for cca recruitment.didnt do much.but had fun.didnt feel like a school day still.cos perhaps i didnt go for lessons.got loa. hee.after cca recruitment we had training.it was raining and we couldnt train on the field. so sad.we continued with training despite the rain. had lotsa fun splashing water at each other. haha.we played game. but stopped when there was lightning.we went to hid in itas canteen.played alil game of charade.it was funny.cos steph nurul and ruby were outside while we were inside.between us was the glass window.it was all mouthing and writing on the glass. thats how we communicated.resumed training after a while.continued with game even though there was still lightning.or else we would have gotten wet for nothing.its was game. continuously.i puked.but carried on after that.got alil irritated with somebody. cos its so obvious thats her man that broke through but she could point to me and exclaim thats your man right after the person tried.i got nothing to say.didnt just happen once. but twice.but since its training i'll let it go.if it ever happens in a game. i'll be real pissed off.i really cant play with her.after training was home with baby.he waited for me for a long while.im sorry.i made prata for the both of us.second day of school.lesson starts at two pm.i went to school at around eleven.hung around the booth.baby came during his break.was glad to see him.he so serious. hug him also like no response.went over to the badminton booth to accompany natalie cos she was all alone by herself.suppose to go for lunch with baby but didnt bear to leave natalie alone.so had baby to get us drinks. hee.thanks baby.natalie treated me to hello panda.we talked and laughed quite alot. me and that piyo.oops.haha.then later lorencia came too.i had to help mend the basketball and netball booth.well. just doing alil favour.then there were these two guys that pointed to me and lorencia and said some stuff.lorencia got affected cos she thought the guy was commenting how a girl her height can be in basketball. this puny girl. too paranoid.turns out that those two guys are from basketball and they didnt know us. they were wondering how come we were at the booth.yup.went for my first lecture.animal anatomy and physiology.the class is so small. so few people.want to slack and play afool also cannot already.first hour was alright. we paid attention.but nearing the second hour. lorencia and i started talking and joking around.typical us in class.end of lecture. got a call form alvin poh. had to go for academic advising.like whatever.i had always thought maybe im the only one that failed hpi. but i found another girl who is the same as me. phew.her timetable is the same as mine.and both of us got no csas3 and cds.so we'll take them next semester. together.yeah. at least thats what alvin poh assured us of.i feel better now knowing that.met up with lorencia again. we planned to go for bookshop shopping.but when we were at the bookshop. we had nothing to get. haha.met baby after that and went home.i love spending time with baby.then i made prata for the both of us again.daddy was like huh.then spend more time with baby til it was time for him to go home.tuesdays are gonna be like that.nopes. they wont. hee.love you baby.good night.
Sunday, April 23, 2006
i love this day.morning started off with breakfast.then went for facial and then a haircut.facial was terrible.cos i have an outbreak of pimples.think its the curse of the puny lorencia.so it hurts like crazy.mummy and the auntie kept talking.talk about many things.well. thats what you get when you put two woman together.sigh. so i had to tolerate with the chit-chatting.but it just got intolerable when they started talking about life and then death.and mummy just had to mention about grandpa and aunt jackie.i seriously dont understand whats the point of repeating stuff that brings back sad memories.and i just couldnt control. so i teared. the auntie may think im crying becos the pain is too unbearable. but when she was done with my face and going on to putting the mask i continued to tear.so i guess she knows why im tearing. she even had to take tissue to dab my tears away for me. cos i couldnt do anything. so embarrassing.i *tsk* a few times to make mummy stop. but i guess she just didnt get the hint to stop talking about whatever.my gosh.then later another auntie joined in the conversation. two is bad enough. three is worse. im supposed to be relaxed and all. but with the chatting going on and on and on. i couldnt be in peace. i became restless and irritated. but there was nothing i could do cos i had a mask on.when it was over. i was like finally.then came my haircut.well. i dont like it.they always like to thin my hair. now too thin. and the fringe too short.i dont like.boo hoo.went home.had just alil portion for lunch. cos daddy cooked porridge.i dont like porridge.then things got boring.nothing to do.until baby messaged me.i was prepared to not see him today.but we still went out together. = )baby got a hair cut too.nice.i took a picture and he looks like a punk.haha.cool baby.we went to ikea.bought some stuff for baby's room.then went for hotdog.and then delifrance.cos i was hungry. hee.stole baby's croissant. its my favourite.made a trip to the supermarket.had fun there. haha.then it was time for home.played some silly tongue game on the way home.hit for nothing consequence would be manje.haha.deal?no deal.=poh.when we came out of the mrt station at redhill. this girl approached us and asked if she could borrow me for awhile. i was like- borrow me?i didnt mind. but when baby said no cannot cos im keeping her.my gosh. we should just go. like right away.so funny. i wonder what went through that girl's mind.i punched baby.school starts tomorrow.somehow im looking forward. maybe becos of cca recruitment.not school. cos i still want my holiday!but i get to see my friends.especially that puny concave one.sleep early.good night world.love my baby.
the day started off with me meeting mab for shopping.went to raffles city to visit our dear chris.chris was real bored at her redemption booth.so we stayed to chat and keep her entertained for alil while.couldnt stay long nor have lunch with her cause that would affect our shopping schedule.haha. shopped around there for just a short time and we headed to town. needa stick to plan.ate. cos mab was starving. at mos burger. hee. thanks maby baby for accomodating to my want.shopped like crazy. i bought everything i need. bottoms. not forgetting a top too. cos im tshirt crazy. and mab bought stuff she needed for the new school term too.girls. haha.two satisfied customers.ate sushi before we left. cos all that shopping made us hungry. mab left for home while i left to meet baby.oh ya.and i saw this fred perry bag.white sling bag.its sixty-nine bucks.oh gosh.i think im really gonna get it. cos i like it alot.but how long is it gonna stay there. nobody knows.i can give the esprit jacket a miss.cos i really want the bag.hee.while waiting for baby. i got a call from chris. chatted with her for a long while.i told her not to end the conversation til baby came. cos there were some people there at the interchange either promoting stuff or doing survey. and i think they were eyeing me. i was scared. cos i've seen how they pestered some of their passer-by victims. so i had to be kept busy. talking on the phone was the solution. soon mab joined in and we did a conference. it was fun chatting on the phone with them after sucha long time. i love these girls. lots.headed for dinner with baby.i really appreciate it that baby still ate even after he has eaten at home. just becos i requested him to. thanks baby.so after that came sausage prata roll.yeah.can i have one please.disaster came.and i wanted to go to the beach.me and my stupid idea.wanted a great time there but it was a rather bad one instead.i didnt wanna talk. all baby got from me was silence.well silence lasted for a long long time.til i decided to open my golden mouth to speak.talked things through.wanted to stay at the beach for a longer time.cos i just love it there. without a doubt.wouldnt mind staying til morning even.but becos i care about somebody. a whole lot. we left.nobody wanted to take the initiative.so we walked. and walked.i wanted to take my mind off everything. so guess what i did.i counted the number of lights in the underpass. but i stopped at nine.well things did improve alil.baby sent me home.and he messaged me to warn me about going back to the beach.alright. i get it. and i had no intention to.so gonna talk later.i love mabel wong.i love christabel chee.gonna miss chris. cos im not gonna get to see her around in school anymore.i love baby the same.yesterday. today. tomorrow. and days to come.i hope you sleep well tonight.good night world.
Friday, April 21, 2006
woke up with baby beside me.
i like that.
didnt feel well at night. had headache and felt alil queasy.
but baby made me feel all better.
set off for brunch.
then bukit batok.
i was supposedly dragged along. but no. i went willingly.
cabbed there and then cabbed from there to bugis.
how fortunate to have been in the comfort of a cab.
but that burnt a hole in baby's pocket. hee.
found a shop i like in bras basah. i'd go back there more often now.
ever heard of a couple who cant go out together?
thats just sad.
count down to the days before school starts- two.
just two. the weekends.
boo hoo.
i dont like my timetable.
next semester not gonna be better either.
but lets hope next year is better.
i cant believe im in year two already.
dont remind me.
it just hasnt set in.
im that old.oh gosh.
sweet revenge?
revenge is never sweet.
and i dont believe in taking revenge.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
it takes everybody involved to bring out each other's potential.these few days i've been obsessed with watching dvds.and spending time with baby.gosh.holidays are gonna be over soon.school's starting in five days.thats less than a week.sigh sigh sigh.gonna enjoy as much as i can.cos i cant slack as much til the next holiday in june.baby cant take mocha.he gets high.no more mocha for you.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
i enjoyed shopping with mab and jiemin yesterday!
looking forward to the second round.
met baby after that.
thanks for the lil surprise.
i love the stuff i received.
thank you!
and finally got to see baby's room. and house.
quite nerve-wrecking to actually step in for the first time.
gosh.
enjoyed the whole time with him.
love him.
lots.
went to malaysia today.
for the sake for godpa and godma.
or else i dont think i would have gone.
maybe becos i wanted to stay and spend time with baby.
so i went and didnt get to see him today.
nothing much.
just eating and eating and eating.
no shopping.
i was quiet most of the time cos i had no one to talk to. and nothing much to talk about.
godma says its generation gap.
haha.
somemore with two women in the car.
the talking never stops.
i bought a new dvd player for my room.
its black. = )
and dvds too. so now can watch dvds in my room.
thats about all.
just thinking about life during our journeys throughout malaysia.and one thought that came up was what if i went ahead with the sports and wellness course.but then. i wouldnt have met all the great people i love in tp.although i dont think i'll struggle as much in that course.and have a fear or supps.the future is just so unclear.im not even sure what i want to do anymore.and people in my life have become a deciding factor too.life will end one day.so we should enjoy life.and not be so uptight and stressed up and make ourselves go through hell on earth.do the things we love and enjoy.material things shldnt be so important.theres no time to be selfish.and no reason to be.maybe thats why i feel much happier than many other people.i appreciate everything people have done for me.i treasure everything i have right now.the future shall worry for itself.i'll just make the fullest of the present.using whatever i've learnt from the past.i love my baby.
Friday, April 14, 2006
i love yesterday's training.absolutely.we finally gotta use the field after sucha long long time.weird thing is we felt extra tired just by playing a game of touch.bye bye to astro turf for the time being.training was great.felt that we really trained. and sweat it out.nobody gave up. endurance.and we really played not bad.no more rigid play. know how to look out for more options.well done.but i wonder what they breed on the tracks.i was sitting there for barely half an hour and i got so many bites.from who knows what insect.all over my legs. and they itch like crazy.keep me busy. scratching.today's good friday.not really good for me.bored at home.lazing around in my room.thanks to my lil cous cristoff for keeping me company.though there are times i wish i was alone.but he made a difference.his hugs and kisses made me feel all better.love him.dont feel like doing anything else.not even going downstairs.bleah.i love daddy!he's so thoughtful.thanks for going through the trouble.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
done!my room is finally neat and clean.satisfied.= )lalala.
got a shock when i turned on the laptop.what happen to my wallpaper?!so..............................what have i been up to the past week?singapore sevenson saturday and sunday.it was two days of rugby action.saturday wasnt as exciting as i thought it would be.there wasnt a large crowd and it rained.we used ponchos cos we didnt go into the sheltered area.i brought a jacket thinking i was well prepared for the weather. but it was so heavy that i had to put on a poncho.the sun went into hiding the whole day.baby stayed over on saturday night. = )went for breakfast at mac on sunday.baby and i competed to see who could eat faster. besides we were rushing for time.cabbed down to the national stadium.none of the other of the girls were there yet so i sat at the ice plunge area. everybody put their bags with me.gave me a reason to be there for. something to do. i looked real dumb. and the security kept staring. irritating.later on i was joined by charlotte sup ifa luu.then we saw a few teams arrive.so cool.the kenya players are so nice.one of them gave me and charlotte a visor each.he put it on my head. and another one was carrying a radio and dancing alil as he walked into the stadium. he winked at me. haha.sunday's atmosphere was alot better.the sun was out.more people.the games were all so exciting.im happy that singapore tried.and fiji won!samoa did a short hakka for us.a french player took out his shorts and threw it to the audience. he was left with his black briefs.i caught three squashy rugby balls. = )french fries are irritating!! so inconsiderate. and just our luck. we sat near them on both days. too rowdy! cant take it.its nice when many people come together to support the teams they like. and getting into the mood.rugby fever.and dancing when the music comes on.just enjoying the whole experience.i cant wait for next year's singapore sevens!other stuff i did.gym.training.cleaning my room.threw away lotsa stuff.i cant stand it. gotta do something to my room.so rearranged stuff here and there.many unnecessary stuff gone.i've got too many stuff.my room is still in a mess cos i havent cleared everything yet. they're all piled up in the middle of my room. will continue tomorrow. cant wait for it to be done.then i'll feel satisfied that i've done so much cleaning in two days.baby is off to camp.i miss him.he said its only one day. kinda two.but one day also have twentyfour hours know!wanna see him soon. cant wait.good night world.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
photos from the day we went wakeboarding.
thats steph tif me nurul
funny steph and tif
strike a pose
just a few. cos somebody forgot to charge her camera!!
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
what's your flavour?tell me what's your flavour.hmm you taste of strawberry!
mmm ... strawberry! tangy and sweet. you're as fresh as a mountain sunrise and as natural as homemade jam. if you were a west end musical you'd be The Sound of Music - we can just picture you twirling for joy in an Alpine meadow. best with cream while watching the tennis. you're simple and refreshing. with just a touch of tartness to give you an edge. always a favourite. people can't get enough of your spontaneous nature and easy-going approach toward life. who wouldn't be attracted to your sporty summery flavour? fun-loving and genuine. you're a truly tasty treat.
Monday, April 03, 2006
wakeboarding at batam today.went there with steph tif and nurul.it was cable ski.at this man-made lake which had an island in the middle.we got the whole place to ourselves.so cool.dont hafta embarrass myself in front of anybody else.first tried the kneeling one.that was fun.but the real stuff aint that easy.still hasnt master standing yet.got a bruise on my knee and a bump on my forehead and blisters on my palms from all the holding. gosh.but theres this guy there. he took tif and then me for a ride around the whole lake on his wakeboard.like so so cool.could feel how its really like.and he wasnt bad looking either. hee.and and and everybody got their chance to come back in a motor bike cos they fell somewhere far.except for me.i waited for my turn.it finally came when i fell between point two and three.the first time i had to walk back.cos the guy took the motor bike outta get us lunch.sad. haha.but i still had my chance. hee.had fun on a floating thing called liquid force.played wrestling on it.sure had fun today.too bad there wasnt any sun.nurul calls me the tanning freak.haha.but i got alil tanner.the toilet was real terrible.a breeding place for mosquitoes.and the shower room had spiders and cockroaches.so i didnt bath there.cleaned up and put on a top.didnt have extra shorts so i wore my wet shorts back.the journey there on the ferry was cold.but the trip back was like freezing.especially when i had wet clothes on.i regretted not bringing a jacket.and on both journeys. i slept. haha.a big thanks to steph tif and nurul for making today sucha enjoyable one.tired tired tired.