another side of me

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

a day at the vet clinic.

one day attachment to mount pleasant animal clinic.
equipped with a checklist and two years of vet education.
got our questions answered
as if we were gonna be a bother.
saw dental scaling of a dog.
spaying of a cat.
stitching of an injured dog.
microchipping.
skin scraping of a puppy.
blood collections.
injections.
saw many many times of anaesthesia and sedation.
saw and asked and learnt alot.
i prefer such hands on experience.
it sure enhance learning.
it was fun.
i love working with animals.
they are such joy to be around.

vet science is cool.

love the time with the boyfriend.
ten words.

Monday, July 30, 2007

tpiranhas
click on this:

http://redsports.sg/2007/07/29/temasek-poly-hold-republic-0-0-to-win-championships/

http://redsports.sg/gallery/?px=%2Ftouch_rugby%2F

Sunday, July 29, 2007

so
it took the boyfriend to make me feel a whole lot better.
after a day of isolation from the world.
though there were others along the way who made me smile.

thanks haha.
thanks lorencia.
and thanks steph for the whole afternoon of
solitaire showdown.

popeyes for dinner with the boyfriend
yesterday night.
yummy butter biscuits.
we're gonna break that record.
two dozens of butter biscuits please.

the boyfriend took me drifting today.
fun fun fun.
it was cool shit.
burn baby burn.
and i drove again.
this time with more pressure on the accelerator.
thrilling afternoon.

untactful words hurt.

pol ite pictures soon!

Saturday, July 28, 2007

tp vs sp
3-0

pol ite 2007 champions: tp

my suckiest game of the season.
it took some time for that joy to set in.
the joy of being the champions.
for the third consecutive year.
im glad we made it.
and all our efforts paid off.
and we didnt disappoint.

polite is officially over.
im gonna miss playing touch for awhile.
days without touch
would seem weird.

after
was dinner at clark quay with the team.

at times when im alone
i forgot about us being champions.
it took others to infect me with their joy.
im happy.
but.
i was never this disappointed before.

i just wanted someone to be there
to be proud of me.

had fun at dinner
and i enjoyed the company.
i love all of you tpiranhas girls.
we fought side by side
and we fought hard.
this is what we deserve.

i received
an elmo bag of 4 card games
a sunflower
a pretty notebook
a match stick
a giant stick
a box of cotton candy
three notes
and mvp.

thanks nicole and liting.
and dee and az and fizah.
and people that messaged to ask.

i remembered in year one
i wanted to work towards most improved player
but in year two
i didnt get it
and i wanted to work towards mvp
in year three
i got it.

i just cant be happy right now.

goodnight world.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

tp vs rp

0-0

both teams played a defensive game.

we were so close to scoring so many times

and several breakthroughs.

if only.

i thought i did well

only to get scolded after the match.

maybe i was too focused on something

that i failed to see from the point of others.

oh well.

im still happy with my performance today.

and i think we did well.

thanks cheng chong.

thanks buddy.

with credits to cheng chong.

tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

just some random post.

just found out about someone's blog
i was kept from
like finally.
stupid friend.
you made me cry.
but i still love you.

i wish there was a song
that could spell me out
in every line
in every word
in its own unique tune.

i wanna join that long long queue for donuts.
i wanna watch fireworks.
i wanna go on a shopping spree and carry loads of bags home.
i want a lava lamp.
i wanna go on a holiday.
i wanna gym gym gym.
i wanna cut my hair.

thank you boyfriend
for the wonderful days past.
you've been wonderful.

i love sleeping in your big tee.

reminisence of the traveller's wife
reminds me of how much i hate goodbyes.
i hate endings.
it takes a toil on my heart.
and now i just feel like crying.
the emotions so strong
that are more than words.
but only that ache i feel deep down inside
the tears that flow
could represent how much i feel.
nobody would ever understand.
why i love people so much.
i dont ever wanna hafta say goodbye.
why must love lead to an end.
a beautiful thing started
so let it grow.

dont you dare say goodbye to me.
ever.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

tp vs np
7-1

our play sucked today.
i let that one try through.
no more offsides for me on this game though.
but i was trying to play individual
says the coach.
i did breakthrough a few times.
overall
it just sucked.
some people should learn to take on their own responsibilities
and stop adding onto the burden of others.
we're at a level where nothing is an excuse.
make up for every mistake by giving your all.

excitement
was the word to describe the past two days.
now that word is gonna be replaced by anxiety.
the next two games are crucial.
any mistake would cost us our goal.
i cant wait for friday.

Monday, July 23, 2007

our first inter poly games today.

tp vs nyp
9-1

when that one try happened against us
my heart sank.
no more zero tries against us.
no more clean record.

i scored the second try.
:)
and another which was called a touch first.
i swear swear swear
it was a try.
no touch.
everybody else thought so too.
but some people lie to get their way.
that's so unfair.
i wished the ref was more alert and decisive.
that wasnt the only time.

my plans on friday cant go as planned.
im sad.
pfft.

i was really excited for today's game.
and i wasnt disappointed.
although warm up was freaky.
im looking forward to tomorrow too.
i wanna do more.
so much more.

i injured my thumb again!
which just made it worst.
i tried spraying anaesthesia but alil too much
and it started to burn.
i cant message
cant eat properly
cant write.
its swollen huge.

im upset now
bcos.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

one last training
before the real thing.
it was vexing.
nerve-wrecking.
stressful.
but all turn out well only at the very end.

and have i told you how
tiny and puny
and body hugging
my jersey is.
oh my gosh.
someone help.
now i wish no one would come watch our games.
but be sure
that the one you see in a tshirt over the jersey
is me.

i sprained my thumb yet again.
pfft.
it hurts real bad.

thanks supi.
thanks ruby.
thanks buddy.

goodnight world.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

training ended real late today.
cos it's our second last one before pol ite.
and it's making me worry.

the moves are making me lost.
it's like i can't do my thing on the field anymore.
i feel so rigid.
i feel so limited.
by the moves.
i feel alil useless cos there's nothing much i can do
not like i used to at least.
im too used to taking control on the field
and making things happen
maybe.
it's alright that im made link instead of the usual centre.
for obvious reasons.
i'll get used to it.
it's like taking me from a position when im always on my toes and working
to a more comfortable position that.
it's so strange how much i prefer being centre
where im always on the move and always have something to do.

i rose to a higher position
and was reduced to where i initially worked from.

will the period come like
now.
its delay is extending my pms period which aint good and aint healthy.
sometimes i'd just shut up cos i know the pms is acting up.

im so hungry.
every night im hungry.
cos there's no dinner and i'd rather not puke.
so every night
i look forward to breakfast.
:)

i puked lunch today and dinner on sunday.
no dinners yesterday and today so no puke.
the only meal that remains in me is breakfast.
well
not exactly remain in me
cos i do hafta shit it out sooner or later.
whatever.
just typing nonsense.

thanks steph.

i miss.

goodnight world.

Monday, July 16, 2007

it feels good to pen down my thoughts.
letting all my emotions go in the form of ink.
now i feel so much better.

blogging them down aint a right move any more.
cos the meant-to-be-private blog
has been linked too long a line.
and the things i say in my blog does have an effect on some people.
now i gotta think if i wanna say the things i think in my head.

it's a wise decision.

im a stronger girl now.

the past week has been busy fun.
pms.
lab duty.
tuition.
tests.
quizzes.
girlfriends.
coaching.
ikea.
rugby.
boyfriend.
fishing.
trainings.

im real broke now.
cant wait for the pay to come in.
so i can get my pdl and have alil shopping done and eat some good food.
hopefully with the appetite.

will the period hurry come.

if only guys could go through one day of what we girls go through during that time of the month.
then they will truly understand
and not think we are exaggerating or trying to get attention.
the uncontrollable emotions and weird feelings and pain.

first i had an increased appetite.
now i just wanna puke all day.
and i bite.

Monday, July 09, 2007

today
i opened a stranger's car
and almost got into it.
oh my gosh.

thats's enough embarrassment for a day.

then i received another msg saying
they saw our lil drama that day.

oh boy.

my first tuition lesson went well.
smiles.

the best part of being in love is being together.

when a girl says:

fine
this is the word we use to end an argument when we are right and you needa shut up.

nothing
this is the calm before the storm.
this means "something" and you should be on your toes.
arguments that begin with "nothing" usually end in "fine".

go ahead
this is a dare, not permission, don't do it!

loud sigh
although not actually a word, the loud sigh is often misunderstood by guys.
a "loud sigh" means we think you are an idiot and wonder why we are wasting our time standing here and arguing with you over "nothing".

nevermind
this is one of the most dangerous statements that girls can make to a guy.
"nevermind" means that we want to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

thanks
this is the least used of all words in the female vocabulary.
if a girl is thanking you do not question it just say you're welcome.

we dont ask for alot.
we may seem demanding at times
but seriously half the things we demand for arent what we really want.
we just want to see if you'd give in and how much you'd sacrifice for us .

when we ask you whether you love us
we dont mean to irritate you or give you stress.
but hearing you say you love us and feeling loved makes us really very happy.
when we call too many times a day and you claim you're not free to entertain us
we are a little disappointed.
we dont mean to interrupt whatever you're doing.
sometimes we call just to tell you we love you and miss you
hoping that you are missing us half as much too.

when we pout and throw fits or get upset over trival matters
dont badmouth us or ignore us.
but tolerate us becos we know when you're nice to us.
we know.

when we dont get to meet you and we get upset
dont tell us it's okay.
becos it will make us feel as though you dont care about us at all and it really really isnt okay .

when you hurt us and we forgive you
it doesnt mean we are there for you to step on or take advantage of.
becos really we remember everything
and there is a limit to everyone's patience.

Sunday, July 08, 2007

the weekend is almost over.
and i really enjoyed myself.

except for the pms and breakout part.
i hate periods!

yesterday
visited luu at her workplace.
made a trip to turf city with the boyfriend and jean luc.
all last minute plans.
threw abit of a tantrum
which i hope nobody heard
or saw.

transformers with the boyfriend and his friends.
i swear starscream's name in chinese is freaking funny.
direct translation.
now i know why that movie is so popular.

cafe del ma with lorencia stacia and diana and the boyfriends.

the boyfriend stayed over.
and we spent our 16th together.
im glad i've got you.
loves.

here comes another busy week.

Friday, July 06, 2007

i found this somewhere and thought i'd just post it.

for the guys:
even the smallest action can have the biggest impact in someone's life.
for that special girl in your life
• give her one of your t-shirts to sleep in.
• leave her cute text notes.
• kiss her in front of your friends.
• tell her she looks beautiful.
• look into her eyes when you talk to her.
• let her mess with your hair.
• touch her hair.
• just walk around with her.
• forgive her for her mistakes.
• look at her like she's the only girl you see.
• tickle her even when she says stop.
• hold her hand when you're around your friends.
• when she starts swearing at you, tell her you love her.
• let her fall asleep in your arms.
• get her mad, then kiss her.
• stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything
• tease her and let her tease you back.
• stay up all night with her when she's sick.
• watch her favorite movie with her.
• kiss her forehead.
• give her the world.
• let her wear your clothes.
• when she's sad, hang out with her.
• let her know she's important.
• kiss her in the pouring rain.
• when you fall in love with her, tell her.
• and when you tell her, love her like you've never loved someone before.

it's been more than one week since i blogged.
just decided to take a break from blogging.

now i'm back!

lots have happened.
which explains the break.

let's see.

there was
a busy week of school
rushing many assignments.
which are done finally.

boyfriend loves and hates.
but i love him the same.

pol ite selection.
the team is finally put together
and we can now concentrate on training for gold.

steph's game against src.
assignment: photographer/number one fan.
buck's first win.
fun times with steph and haha.

sandwich and milkshakes and donuts with luu.
thank you.

making the best outta every minute during breaks with lorencia stacia diana and her vroom.
all those food.
having fun and loving it.
without these girls school would be a bore.

all the smiles laughters and tears.
worries disappointments and hopes.

it's been a long week.

sunrise.
sunset.
september.