another side of me

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

yesterday.
the day i thought i'd go surprise someone at his house bus stop with a rose.
planned to meet at tamp interchange and he was supposed to inform me when hes leaving the house. but i left home real early. took a bus to bedok interchange. walked around looking for some place that sells flowers cos i wanted to get him a rose. kinda lost but i tried not to look lost.
got the rose at some market place. a blue rose. walked anyhow back to the interchange and from there to his house.
carved alil something on the stalk.
waited at the bus stop.
wait.
wait.
wait.
and still waiting.
giving someone a surprise aint easy at all.
it was so nerve-wrecking.
and on my mind were scenarios of how the surprise would turn out and how it could be impossible. like if he arrived at the bus stop and the bus came. how. if his sister decided to go to gnc and gave him a lift. how. if he took a cab. how.
in the end. i waited for an hour. he appeared. watched his every move from opposite. panicked when he disappeared for alil while. i called and saw him still opposite. i laughed and came up with a stupid excuse-wrong number. hung up. watched as he crossed at the traffic light. hid. but something felt wrong after the green man turned red. hes taking too long to appear at the bus stop. i came outta hiding to search. he was gone. one of the possible scenarios happened. he took a cab. i called him and he had to get the cab to turn back. the cab uncle smiled when i entered.
i felt dumb.
like really really dumb.
so stupid.
what a surprise it turned out to be.
no more surprises.
my first and look what happened.
gosh.
baby is so mean.
he even got pissed.
and he had to tell someone about it.
share the laughter huh.
mean baby.

action figure.
what kind.

action figure.
what size.

a game between me and baby.
i love my jerk-me-teddy action figure.
theres a new one too.
vibrator cheeky boy.
haha.

today.
hpi was a goner.
like totally.

i love my baby lots.