Monday, May 29, 2006
today is a shitty day.
baby fell sick.
he has diarrhea and a flu.
im so damn worried alright.
must be the dinner.
im so sorry.
i called to check how he was feeling.
what do you mean why?
im just showing that i care.
i didnt need that.
that wasnt how i wanted the conversation to be.
i even sacrificed my time to talk instead of studying for my quiz.
so much going through my mind right now.
school's over.
much earlier than its supposed to be for today.
holding back my tears all day.
im so glad im home.
cos im really tired.
tired emotionally.
need to hear from someone so badly.
but til now all i got were msgs i didnt need in the morning when it all happened.
and hanging up on me just made me feel better. lots lots better.
thanks but no thanks.
im so damn tired that i dont even know if i wanna gym with luu later on anymore.
i dont know if i wanna see him.
he doesnt know that seeing him means a great deal.
and that it makes everything alright.
even when i've told him a million times.
thanks lorencia.
for trying to cheer me up.
for all the laughter.
and the smiles i didnt hafta fake.
it hurts inside.
im tired of holding the tears back.
tired of putting on a brave front.
im not so tough after all.
i just need you.
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