another side of me

Monday, June 26, 2006

first day of the new term.
it was alright.
lecture was cancelled.
got back papers.
saw the careperson.
ended school early.
had training.

training wasnt good.
cos we upset the coach.
no sense of urgency.
and im guilty of it.
but then we got punished for who knows what.
hundred push-ups and hundred sit-ups.
plus more.
cos we didnt meet our objective during game.
like out of the sudden.
everybody down hundred.
what?!

fitness was no better.
the other time i sat out cos i injured my ankle.
this time i joined the team.
run half the field in a given time.
each decreasing by ten seconds.
wasnt easy at all.
i reached back at our starting point on time for all except for the forty seconds time limit.
i couldnt take it anymore.
so tired and running outta saliva.
people who were not running didnt take initiative to make themselves useful by filling up the bottles.
but im glad i didnt step out and completed all the rounds.
i didnt wanna give myself that option.
cos i know i can do it physically.
its the mental part thats challenging.

my boyfriend came up to me after training and said ' one more reason why you're my girlfriend is bcos...'
just when i thought something nice and sweet was coming
he said ' you're as unfit as me'
i just blurted out ' i hate you'
haha.
but obviously i dont mean it.
cos i love him.
theres a fitness test coming up.
sigh sigh sigh.
i hate fitness.
and i hate running.

but i want so much to achieve something.
to get myself a place in the team.
i want it badly and i will fight for it.
working on my strengths and weaknesses.

love you baby.
lots lots lots.

gonna be an early night.
goodnight world.