another side of me

Monday, June 12, 2006

woke up at five plus yesterday morning.
to send mummy off to taiwan.
i could have gone with her.
crap.
now im stranded in singapore with no where to go.
sigh.
then it was home and then shopping with the girlfriends.
met chris first then mab came to join us later.
stupid mab.
still as gullible.
i lied to her that chris stood me up and she believed.
so dumb.
haha. i even paused for awhile before i went into drama mode and complained about how chris stood me up and refuse to answer my calls. hahaha.
so funny.
maybe i just sounded too convincing.

so shopped around and there was a change of plans.
change of venue for dinner and shopping.
i didnt get anything i planned to get.
i desperately need shoes!!!
i was bored.
haha.
for the first time bored on a shopping trip.

then back to tampines for dinner with baby.
four of us.
baby and my girlfriends and i.
it was hilarious.
had sucha great time talking about those good old days.
and im sure baby was amused and very much entertained.
mab kept forcing baby to talk.
and i had to let out a secret that only mab chris and i knew.
crap man.
like seriously.

heres what happened.
initial plan:
meet up with mab and chris.
head down to the airport to give baby a surprise send off.
(cos i didnt wanna go by myself)
on arrival. i would give baby a call to say i wont be sending him off and sound all apologetic after all hes done. say my goodbyes.
and then surprise him.

but but but.
chris talked about it over dinner.
chris: what time must i leave if i hafta reach bugis at ten and walk...bla bla bla.
discussion went on.
baby helped to count thinking she was going to school from tanjong pagar.
me: bla bla bla...the train take very long at the airport there.
i paused for awhile.
it took me a second or two to realise what i had just said.
i burst into laughter and sobs.
cos i spoilt the damn surprise.
chris tried to cover it up by saying her parents are going to london.
haha.
thanks for trying.
baby was clueless until he saw the way i reacted.
sigh.
something i planned and ruined.

so this morning i gotta spend time with baby before he flew off to bangkok.
it didnt turn out the way i wanted it to be.
or should i say the way both of us wanted it to be.
but i hope it didnt affect him too much. and he'll still enjoy himself there.
take a break from everything here in singapore. and me.
im missing him already.
four days suddenly seem so long when the months have been flying past.
im kinda dreading it.
i cant wait til he comes back.
sigh.
today alone seems so draggy cos he aint around.
but at least theres something i can look forward to later.
training.
and at least i can be occupied for that few hours and put my mind off from missing him.
and theres gym tomorrow to make time pass faster.
four days.
four days.
four days.
its like pay back for the time i left him for five days.

call me lovesick for all i care.
cos thats what i am right now.

thanks mab!
for making the effort to accompany me.
love you.