another side of me

Friday, October 06, 2006

what's going on in this world?
people just get weirder.
what is wrong?!

this saturday is gonna be the last game of ntl.
then the pressure is on.
trainings for ntl will start.
so will fitness.
which sucks.
and after two weeks of pressure and stress and sufferings
will come ip selection.
and only 12 are allowed in the team.
competition is gonna drive me nuts.
i broke down the previous year.
at least this year i've got someone there for me.
in case i decide to break down again.
oh gosh.
im feeling it already.
not looking forward to the next few weeks of intense trainings.
i cant heave a sigh of relief until ip is over.
that is like looooooooong.
(well that is if i do get into the team)

ip is gonna be different this year.
just round robin.
the points and score difference if necessary will decide the champion.
its just gonna be over the period of five days.
gonna miss lectures and tutorials for sure.
which isnt a good thing cos i'll hafta catch up on lots.
yeah yeah.
talking as if i'll get into the team.
aint good to be optimistic all the time.
hope i dont fade into the background again.
and that that one person wont be able to intimidate and pressure me on the field anymore.

and im sorry for hating some people.
for refusing the ways of others.

i cant help but feel this way.
so what if i get jealous.
then dont make me be this way.
dont make me turn green.
draw that line.